May we never lose our wonder

Sometimes I stand in the back of our youth room during worship and wonder what we are doing wrong. I see some students and leaders worshipping. I see many that are not. I see many that are standing with their arms crossed or hands in their pockets. I know that it is not my fault per se- that I should not take it personally. However, I do. I do feel responsible.  Then I feel guilty, I have been that same way. All sorts of excuses can creep into my mind or anyone’s mind for that matter.

I don’t like this song. I don’t like the style or voice of this singer. It’s cold in here. My phone is more interesting. The person sitting beside is more interesting. The words on the screen aren’t right.

There are so many distractions…so, so many. Life is amazing, but it is full of a bazillion details. These little details can race around in our mind 24/7. I don’t want it to be like this. It is not always, but sometimes  I have to be VERY PURPOSEFUL  in my worship time. It is very easy to be distracted and allow my mind to wander. It can wander to bills, laundry, kids, stress, etc…

Isn’t God deserving of so much more than that?

Psalm 72:18-19New Living Translation (NLT)

 Praise the Lord God, the God of Israel,
    who alone does such wonderful things.
 Praise his glorious name forever!
    Let the whole earth be filled with his glory.
Amen and amen

We are so spoiled. We are free to attend church and  worship freely. People in other parts of the world are attacked or murdered simply for trying to attend a worship/church service. I have roughly two dozen  Bibles in my home….others are smuggling Bibles in and ripping pages out to share one Bible among a village.

We might hear these stories from a missionary speaker or read them in a book. We might even shed a tear. Our hearts might be torn as we go on a  missions trip. The question is, what about a month later? Are you back to your regular routine? Do we take the presence of God for granted? Do we see His wonder as no big deal?

I don’t want to ever lose my wonder. A wonder that is so deserving. A wonder that gave everything for me. A wonder that created me with a purpose and had been faithful over and over again.

Yet, I’m too busy or proud or popular or spoiled to give Him my all for thirty minutes during worship.

Shame on us– shame on me.

Deuteronomy 4:39New International Version (NIV)

 Acknowledge and take to heart this day that the Lord is God in heaven above and on the earth below. There is no other.

I love this song. It was on repeat in my mind as I stood in the back of our youth room feeling discouraged….

May we never lose our wonder
May we never lose our wonder
Wide eyed and mystified
May we be just like a child
Staring at the beauty of our King

Cause you are beautiful in all your ways
King of Kings
You are beautiful in all your ways


About jfulford01

Hello to anyone taking time form their busy lives to read my blog. I am a wife to an amazing man, who I am blessed to serve alongside in youth ministry. I am mommy to two amazing kids who I am privileged to be able to homeschool. This blog is out of my comfort zone and certainly me trying to be obedient to Christ. I love Him more than I care about my own comfort or awkwardness. Hopefully, this blog is honest, real, and transparent. I'm not a big fan of fake. The Lord is using it to bring growth to me...and I pray that in the process something about my crazy beautiful life might also encourage others.
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