A cry in the dark

It happened just this week. It was my night off, so I was home. I hadn’t been asleep for longer than an hour. I heard  a scream. It’s Gary, our 6 year old. He’s screaming, “MOMMMMMYYYY!!!!”  And as a mom, you can tell the difference in the sound of your kids cries. This was a ‘for real, I need you now’ kinda scream. I jump out of bed and go to his room. He is sitting on his bed….in the dark…..just crying out for me. He said he had a nightmare and wanted to come get in mommy and daddy’s bed. I step over Legos and stuffed animals to hug him and calm him down. Then I walk him by the hand into our room where he climbs into bed with us. 

Gary knows where our room is. He knows the steps to take from his room to make it into ours. He takes those same steps daily to ask his sleepy momma about making him breakfast. It’s not that he didn’t know how to get to us. He knew that getting to me meant that it would be ok. He knew that I would rub his back and hold him until he fell asleep and he would be safe. He knew the outcome and the steps to get there, yet he didn’t move. He sat in his bed in the dark, paralyzed by fear. He wasn’t moving. He was balled up tight just crying out and waiting. 
Isn’t that how we treat God sometimes?
We know the promises that he has spoken to us. We know what His word reveals to us.  Yet, sometimes we allow our circumstances and situations to cause us to sit paralyzed in fear…in the dark…. Just crying out. We know the truths that the Bible contains. And we know that we are victorious and we will win the war, however instead of claiming those promises and speaking that life over ourselves……
We just sit. In the dark. Waiting for this rescue mission that will take us out of our fear and into a safer/better place.
Maybe your “dark” is a sucky job or a fight with a friend…..maybe it’s parents that are arguing or kids that are rebelling. 
Don’t spend too much of your time sitting in fear. It seems to become more paralyzing the longer we let it eat away at us.
It’s not always easy, but the path is laid out for your escape. 
His promises are there to light your way and guide your steps. 
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. (‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭37-39‬ ESV)

About jfulford01

Hello to anyone taking time form their busy lives to read my blog. I am a wife to an amazing man, who I am blessed to serve alongside in youth ministry. I am mommy to two amazing kids who I am privileged to be able to homeschool. This blog is out of my comfort zone and certainly me trying to be obedient to Christ. I love Him more than I care about my own comfort or awkwardness. Hopefully, this blog is honest, real, and transparent. I'm not a big fan of fake. The Lord is using it to bring growth to me...and I pray that in the process something about my crazy beautiful life might also encourage others.
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