Where is my fleece?

In Judges 6, we read the story of Gideon. In verses 36 and 37, we read that Gideon is doubting what the Lord has told him and asks the Lord to prove that it is genuine. He lays a fleece out to be absolutely positive that He was hearing God correctly. He not only does this once, but asks for “proof”  twice. I have often referred to myself as a “fleece” girl. You know the kind…..secretly hoping that God can drop one of those giant, flashing signs from the sky like in the old cartoons from my childhood. With that being said, I have been kind of dealing with the ‘assignment’ of blogging for about three months now. I have never been a huge writing/journaling person. Since we made the decision to start homeschooling, I have started following a few blogs that helped me get started and have encouraged me along the way.  It was right around the first of the year when I felt like God was telling me that He wanted me to start a blog. My first question was, ‘are you sure that you meant that for ME…?’ I am a youth pastors wife and have been involved youth ministry for all of my adult life…..I am very involved with social media. I have a facebook, twitter, instagram…..isn’t that enough!?!?  I just found myself, like Gideon, asking for assurance that God was sure and that it was really meant for me. I have literally been running from this ever since then. God has woken me up three times out of sound sleep thinking about ‘my blog’. It is certainly not me, because I have been trying my very best to NOT think about it. I just thought I would put if off until that feeling went away. My biggest argument is that I am a pretty typical person…what in the world could I have to offer. I questioned the purpose of this new calling. The Lord so graciously reminded me that He does not see me the way that I tend to see myself. He reminded me that people could relate to me on a number of levels…..being a woman, wife, mother, youth pastors wife, homeschooler. The Lord reminded me that just as the blogs of others had encouraged me when I needed it, that He could and would also use me to encourage someone else. I am trusting in that promise.I don’t know if I will be doing this for a few months or a few years, but I am trusting that there is a purpose. So here goes nothing….. I don’t know if anyone will care or even read this, but this is me being obedient.

About jfulford01

Hello to anyone taking time form their busy lives to read my blog. I am a wife to an amazing man, who I am blessed to serve alongside in youth ministry. I am mommy to two amazing kids who I am privileged to be able to homeschool. This blog is out of my comfort zone and certainly me trying to be obedient to Christ. I love Him more than I care about my own comfort or awkwardness. Hopefully, this blog is honest, real, and transparent. I'm not a big fan of fake. The Lord is using it to bring growth to me...and I pray that in the process something about my crazy beautiful life might also encourage others.
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